She of the Moon and Starry Skies

If you follow love’s heart alone, you will not be disappointed, for he has been with you all along, and she has with him the beloved of your dreams, she of the moon and the starry skies, who kisses those who reach the surface of the ocean’s deep, to take the light into the darkness below.

Two of Swans
  1. Attachment. Who we believe we are in the world is expressed in our attachment to aspects of the world. We become bound to them. Over time, we become stuck. Eventually we become them.
  2. Comfortable Pain. We would rather feel familiar pain and agony than feel ourselves. Our dramatic stories of love lost and heroic feats of unrecognized kindness, like television and music and movies, become distractions that carry us away. And the longer we do this, the less willing we become – unless by some divine intervention – to realize this folly of our life. In most cases, if some do discover this little truth, most learn to make regret their bedfellow and so they create even newer distractions until they find the final distraction in their own death.
  3. Deep Divers. As we dive deeper into who we are, we give ourselves permission to enjoy certain levels of the deep for a time, to stay and look around and become familiar if not proud. There be dragons and there be egos here. But then one day we get a tiny peek at how much deeper is our vast universe and at the moment, fear strikes our heart – for deep space is lonely and dark – and we recoil, hoping to go back to ego and dragons. But we surprisingly find we that we cannot go back, for we have discovered that the current level of existence is not authentic to the depth that Self is, and so we face a choice: we can either stay in what is not truly ourselves, or we can gather up the courage and love to go towards ourselves even deeper.
  4. Healthy and Unhealthy Ego. Our egos are not by themselves bad. The ego can be roughly understood to be a boundary of identity and a living energetic being that by and large reflects who we want to be in the world. Just like the body, the ego requires care and support and nourishment. But most people don’t pay attention to energetic bodies. They can barely pay mind to their own physical body, let alone something they cannot see with their two eyes. Unhealthy egos spend most of their time defending themselves and preventing the person who holds the ego from growing or transforming into something outside of it. The ego will defend itself against anything that threatens to change it – at all costs. It justifies even the most cruel actions against its imagined enemies because anything foreign to it is a danger and a threat. To make matters worse, the ego will call this self defensive love and will use love as a way to justify its own brutality against itself and others. At this point the ego is simply thriving on fear alone and it feeds off the fear of others as well, for “others” are always an enemy to the ego-self who fears its own demise. On the other hand, an ego that is truly powerful and healthy is fluid and can transform itself depending on its condition without harming or diluting its integrity. The healthy ego embraces difference and truly stands in love without compromising its integrity. This healthy state of ego is not easy to achieve in a culture that celebrates the unhealthy ego.
  5. Children of Egos. Kids who are raised by unhealthy fear-based egos become driven by fear and illusion. They become the world that their parents created for themselves. If a child, as he grows, does not uncover this deception for himself and ascend above it, he will continue to cultivate the diseases and neuroses that will finally ruin him. Some call this karma. I call it travesty. We all have an opportunity to heal not only ourselves, but all the generations that preceded us.
  6. Withholding Love. The vibration of love is deep and passionate and it arouses the feelings of unity and compassion and connection to all the world. How do you know you are far from your true self? You simply need to notice your indifference towards all the others, especially those from you withheld love.
  7. Love as a Threat. We withhold love from others because we are afraid of the intensity of it. Many people – most people (or should I say egos) – find love to be a threat. And they are not wrong.
  8. Destruction. Love strips away all that isn’t you. It will tear your heart out if it believes it to be a fake. Make no mistake, you are never destroyed by love. The only thing that love destroys is that which does not allow you to love. Let it die.
  9. Love Destroys Ego. The first thing ipso facto that love destroys is the ego. Not half of the ego, not three-quarters, but all of it.
  10. Love Heals. Music does not heal. Only love heals. Music that is created inside love will heal. The rest will be destroyed in time and space and forgetfulness.
  11. Vibration. Art that does not match the vibration of love will fall to the wayside. It doesn’t matter how popular it becomes, it will not resonate. It doesn’t matter how expensive a piece of art is, you will not be able to hear it in the hearts of mankind. Just because you hear the music in the grocery store and in the cars of babes, it doesn’t mean that it flows in the blood and the soul of the universe.
  12. Adoration. What is adored by the world is an illusion that ego loves to entertain. But who is adored by you is in love towards you the same.

Love and Yoga

“Don’t move the way fear makes you move. Move the way love makes you move. Move the way joy makes you move.”


1. Atrophy. Everything has a force that wants to fall apart and sink back into the earth for decomposition and regeneration. Everything that is, except love.

2. Use it or Lose it. What you do not use will fall into atrophy. This includes ideas, inspirations, and hopes. If we do not manifest them, they will fight like fire to reach back into the stars. Love does not allow waste and laziness or preoccupations with frivolities.

3. Integrity. Love is a holistic high-frequency energetic force that strives to expand and embrace in its expansion. There is no destruction of this force. No beginning and no end.

4. Alignment Everything that does not align with the nature of love will fall away and decompose.

5. Stubborn. Most of the material world is stuck energy. The energy of the chair you are sitting in remains fixed inside its contained form and structure, both internal and external. The more binding its components are the longer it remains stuck. We can become stuck in matter as well, stuck in mind, stuck in heart. Many call this love and and on earth for thousands of years, we have tried make love something that is sticky and binding, attempting to imitated its unifying nature. But being stuck has nothing to do with love. Love is always freedom and fluidity.

6. Greed. We tend to collect to many things such as objects, money, attention, fame when we don’t know how to manifest from the living energy itself.

7. Creative energy is like rain water: it is free and it is always seeking to find its way into the ground.

8. Grounding. You are a living lightening rod for creative energy. It is your destiny. But like all electricity, that energy must be grounded, otherwise it will kill you.

9. Frustration. Most people are ungrounded and that makes them angry and spiteful. Nothing, they think, seems to go right for them. But what they don’t know is that things are not going right
because they are trying to make things happen for them, instead of manifesting them from their own energy field. In other words, they are trying to use ego to manifest and ego is always violent and unjust.

10. Undefinable. Love does not try to own or stick to anything. What it does is embraces and expands. Love is the expansion of a universe that is all-encompassing. It is both container and contained and containing nothing. It is the one.

11. Limits. Language has limits that love does not. This is why music is better suited to expressing love. However, even music has its limits. At the end of the day, the best expression of love is your own living heart, and that is only for you and the beloved to experience.

12. Understanding. Our desire to understand love often leads us to believing that our very understanding of it is love. Then we begin to believe that the representation of love is what love is. In this reality, we are for the most part constantly replacing what is real with what is false – and suffering for it. Our understanding does not have the capacity to understand anything about love.

13. Tantric Yoga. The best we can do is stand in love and express it to the best of our ability. The virtues in the words of Jesus, in Yoga, in any doctrine are an attempt to pattern our behaviors and thoughts inside of love. But still even these are not love. They are simply a human way to align with it in order to better manifest the intention of love energy.

14. Resistance towards Love. Love will often tear things and people apart in order to keep them properly together. Our false understanding of love doesn’t like this and will write dramatic songs about it.

15. Love is Peace. All the agony and war of the world would fall away naturally inside love. And it does.

16. Cupid is not the Enemy. Time and space are perspectives. Love has zero regard for them. Who you connect to on a deep soul level – who you truly and actually love – is not up to your decision making or plans.

17. Desire. For the millionth time, love has nothing to do with desire. Desire always comes from a place of lack and need, like hunger or thirst.

18. Our relationship to love is complicated. We want it to be what is not. We want to make happen for ourselves. The only way to love is to be love and the only way to be love is to find its energy expression within yourself enough to ground and create from it. It is the only way to bliss and happiness, to union, to yoga.

Quantum Consciousness

“After the conversations about Indian philosophy, some of the ideas of Quantum Physics that had seemed so crazy suddenly made much more sense.”

Werner Heisenberg

“When the province of physical theory was extended to encompass microscopic phenomena through the creation of quantum mechanics, the concept of consciousness came to the fore again. It was not possible to formulate the laws of quantum mechanics in a fully consistent way without reference to the consciousness.”

Eugene Wigner
  1. Consider that every object, every plant, every animal, and every human being is the projected manifestation of an incredibly advanced carbon-based biotechnology.
  2. A rock appears to be fixed in shape and size. But we know that as water is allowed to pass over and around it, that same rock will gradually lose its shape and size. It may even lose its place. This transformation can happen only in time and in space and in the dimensions of time and space. On earth, this is a very slow process unless the binding energy of the atomic molecules is weak, like in soap that is clumped together for example. It is easy for water to wash over soap and dissolve it. Not so easy in the case of iron. In the case of the human being’s body, we are mostly made of water. Consider that if our cells did not regenerate, we would not survive for very long in this current body.
  3. “Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.” – Niels Bohr
  4. Perhaps the life expectancy of a human being is simply a function of how well that body can regenerate itself to peak or at least better than optimal performance.
  5. Death is a failure to regenerate. It has no affect upon the creative consciousness. However, the consciousness loses access to the tool that is the physical form.
  6. “No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.” – Heraclitus
  7. We are not even spiritual beings, but we are consciousness that can manifest ourselves as spiritual beings or any beings whatsoever. We ourselves are a potential in the quantum field. But manifesting on earth using carbon technology allows for something that feels “permanent”, “fixed” and “slow”. So many people feel stuck where they are. They have lost sight of the door. All eyes are doors to consciousness.
  8. “There are things known and things unknown and in between are the doors.” – Jim Morrison.
  9. The fluidity of our perception, our imagination, is a reflection of pure consciousness and its power to create with an energy that cannot survive for very long. It quickly moves back into the source of consciousness until consciousness wants to create again. To kiss another would require a regeneration or a manifestation of energy, must like a spirit needs to use energy to manifest itself to the human eye. In any case, earth was once created to reflect the dimensions of energies that could not possibly survive on earth, in order to create something that persists longer than a kiss.
  10. Earth is a field created for manifestation. It is a giant playground. But to manifest on earth, it takes time and space and great energy. This makes many children miserable. You cannot think of being on a boat and suddenly be on a boat. Other dimensions don’t have that limitation, however other dimensions don’t have durability or persistence either. For this reason other dimensions feel too fluid and free, and earth often feels like a prison.
  11. Video games and virtual reality and social media were invented to simulate other dimensions. But they don’t satisfy us on earth. We are still separated by bodies, and it doesn’t matter how many friends we make online, if we do not ascend to the higher realms in our consciousness, then we cannot connect with others in a deep and profound and permanent way. Once more people can do this, speaking across the wire will become a sacred act of pure consciousness. In other words, we will all engage in telepathic communication, our birthright.
  12. The field of unified consciousness is a field of quantum possibility and so it must also allow all possibilities – including the restriction of possibility.
  13. Balance is always the goal when it comes to life on earth. We still have not achieved this balance. It is a work in progress. This is why we suffer. But individuals can practice the spiritual disciplines or invent their own through art and music. There is always a way for us to overcome our suffering, for suffering is rooted in a misunderstanding about the nature of our world and ourselves within it.
  14. The balance between our masculine and feminine energies or lack thereof constitutes the source of our most agonizing problems. English tried to remove this problem by remove masculine and feminine nouns. Of course the remove achieved nothing.
  15. Aristotle coined the term “the golden mean” which is another way to say “balance”. He knew that we were far from achieving it, but that it was the only goal that earthlings should have. All extremes, no matter how good they are perceived to be, are detrimental to life in some way. This includes spiritualism.
  16. Early thinkers were much more fluid than modern thinkers are. They were still deeply affected by the imagination and its spiritual roots in the extra-terrestrial dimensions. The word for “boat” in Greek is the same word for Aristotelian “matter”. Not very scientific. Aristotle attempted to remedy this problem be defining the limitation and boundaries of things in consciousness. He created the foundation for the scientific mind. Yet to this day, we still have difficulty with boundaries and the nature of things. It is still not as clear as the mind would like.
  17. Today’s earth marks an excessive obsession with mind and formulation. While earlier cultures clung to their imaginative fluidity and connection to the divine, we are afraid of it and those who practice it are often shunned and cut off from the rest of the humanity.
  18. Fear and anxiety and depression in most people could be resolved by simply becoming aware that most of the things they worry about do not even exist. Yoga will help facilitate this. Not yoga designed to give you great abs, but yoga designed to strengthen and relax the body so that the consciousness can begin to let go and open its eye.
  19. Objects and essences of earth can become quite trapped in their manifested forms. Animals are always fixed within their forms to a very great extent. Human beings less so, but most of us become as trapped as the animals are. The animals however do not mind their forms. They are pure acceptance. We are not. Why? We are consciousness and a consciousness of potential. We are magic. We are magicians.
  20. Animal spirits or guides are generated for us from within the spiritual dimensions, to help teach us about our limitations and how we might overcome them. For example, you might have an affinity for or a liking towards wolves, without really understanding why. Later, if you travel further in your spiritual journey, you might one day meet your spirit guide, the wolf. You will then have a profound understanding of your connection to the nature of a wolf. Your entire life will begin to make sense.
  21. Plato had a name for the way things are formulated upon the earth. They are first conceived of as forms (eidos). Eidos is simply a cognate of the Greek verb meaning “to see”. We see what we are able to see and we see the things that are able to be seen.
  22. “Observations not only disturb what is to be measured, they produce it.” – Pascual Jordan
  23. Our bodies have been designed to only see within a certain light and sound spectrum. Our sense of touch is also designed to respect the fixed boundaries of forms. However, there is one organ that allows us to maintain a connection to spectrums that are far beyond what the body itself can perceive. The ancient Egyptians knew about this organ, what we call the pineal gland. The Eye of Horus, the third eye, is shaped like a pineal gland.
  24. Once your third eye is opened, you may start to see the true reality of things, that they are much more fluid than you can see with the two eyes and that there are certain forces and energies like gravity that keep things in place. You can see objects and their energies move and quiver, like they want to collapse into something else, but cannot do so due to the laws of nature established in this ecosystem. It is a fascinating thing to experience.
  25. As the consciousness of humanity rises, so will our ability to achieve joy and bliss on this earth, for we will be free of the false fears and anxieties that have held us back and we will learn how to easily create whatever it is our dreams call us to create.

Namaste. Shanti Shanti Shanti.

“Ancient wisdom and quantum physicists make unlikely bedfellows: In quantum mechanics the observer determines (or even brings into being) what is observed, and so, too, for the Tiwis, who dissolve the distinction between themselves and the cosmos. In quantum physics, subatomic particles influence each other from a distance, and this tallies with the aboriginal view, in which people, animals, rocks, and trees all weave together in the same interwoven fabric.”

Huston Smith

Treasure Hunt

1. When we cannot inspire ourselves, we look to a group of people to provide that inspiration for us.

2. The “collective” in anything is simply just strength in numbers. So many have lost their way in the collective.

3. When you begin to get to know yourself, you begin to learn how to love yourself and you begin to realize what a magical adventure you are.

4. The truth is that humanity cannot handle its own truth, so it mostly pretends to be simple.

5. Group-think or hive mind is a necessary survival mechanism designed to keep everything appearing small and insignificant.

6. We have two choices: to live in order to survive or to live. Most choose survival.

7. You will not actually find yourself in a belief system, a religion, a career, or a talent. Nor will anyone be able to help you find yourself. There is no amount of money you can pay to access the privilege that is you. No, you must learn to look in the mirror. That is all. And look deeply and with profound love and forgiveness, like you would your own child.

8. If all of humanity woke up, the game of earth would cease. That is not a desirable outcome because most have not yet discovered self-love. Self love is a prerequisite for true human freedom. Until then, we remain safely in our own mental imprisonment.

9. Only a few must be awakened, for they are the creators and the artists of their generations. They must live in the source of art, not in the deceit of it. If they choose to live in the deceit, they will remain imitators instead of creators, slaves forever.

10. Music is a vibration that is loved by the vibration that it matches. But the real art and power of music is in its ability to transform the vibration of the body, the emotional body, the energetic body, the subtle astral body: all bodies. Music is life.

11. Music is the essence of who we are. It can lock us within a tomb or it can raise us above the skies.

12. Everyday speech is an extremely weak method for true communication, its faith in itself conceals its own mediocrity.

13. Most people spend their lives in mindless chatter and nonsense. This is the root cause of their anxiety and depression. Confusion is a kind of noise. It is music that makes no sense at all. It is the true meaning of torture. Make no mistake. The modern mind is a torture chamber in the highest degree.

14. This modern world is designed from top to bottom to be a giant distraction from who we are. It is a combination of Dante’s hell and Chinese water torture and endless repeats of Happy Days. We are both addicted to and allergic to this distraction. If there is one word that could describe the modern world it would be misery.

15. Computers have not improved communication. They have limited it, confined it to empty echoes in the wires and the ether.

16. Because people have lost the art of communication, they have become fearful of what other might say about them.

17. The modern world wants the individual to care about what the modern world thinks of him or her.

18. Most people follow a religion for the sake of survival, not illumination or love. This is why religious zealotry is so common: their greatest fear is that they are wrong about what happens after death.

19. The English word religion is derived from the Latin religio which means to bind or to yoke together. Compare to the Sanskrit, yoga, which also means union, specifically union of the lower self with the higher self or the divine.

20. The Western religions are presented in half-truths simply because their relationship with eastern religions has been deliberately severed from view. The roots of this tree are many, but one still grows in full view, albeit ignored by the generic Jewish population, namely Mystical Kabbalah or Qabalah as the western occultists like to call it. Either way, Jewish mysticism has a deep connection to early Christian mysticism, as well as a connection to early pagan mystery cults. Such things have been scrubbed from modern churches and synagogues.

21. The glue that keeps modern society together is equal to the energy exerted by its component parts. The component parts are you and me and everyone else who participates in this game. The glue is your soul energy. And make no mistake – it is a sacrifice. The true deal with the devil has already been done.

22. The devil in the red suit with horns belongs in children’s stories. Jesus never spent time with such a one. The devil he spent time with and successfully resisted with is the one you have already welcomed into your home, your heart, your bed.

23. In the Greek New Testament, the word for repentance is metanoia. It means to overcome the mind and set attention to something beyond it (towards the divine). How do you elevate your mind? You learn to focus its attention on something else. But first you must learn how to not to drown inthe choppy waters of the mental space. chitta vritti nirodha: “a cessation of the waves of the mind-stuff.” – Yoga Sutras 1:2.

24. We all have psychic powers and gifts. But they cannot be unveiled unless we calm the chatter of the mind. The world is designed to hide our gifts. Are you ready for a treasure hunt?

25. Love is difficult when we only perceive it in terms of possession and loss. Once we begin to elevate our consciousness we enter the sea of eternal love where beloved and lover are already experienced as one. This is the bliss of ultimate awareness, ultimate ecstasy.

26. If you understand the New Testament, you understand the Yoga Sutras. The miracles of Jesus are the miracles of Self.

27. There are no miracles in the world. There are only powers and energy.

28. We believe in miracles only due to our limited perception of what reality is. Nothing more. Nothing less. There are spirits and energies of other dimensions all around you. How do I know? I see them. How can I see them? I have done the work and am still doing the work.

29. We are in such a sorry state of consciousness that many find it hard to believe that the spirits of our ancestors spend much time with us.

30. The general public is in a trance like state, which means you are in in a trance like state. Be wary of those who believe they are fully awake. These are the ones who are mostly asleep.

31. What are we entranced by? Music/Television/Movies/Politics and then we becomes entranced by their imitations in the form of family, friends, co-workers. We all choose our role. We all choose our costumes. The children who have not yet chosen are the only light we have. The animals are the only truth we cling to. Many give up if they hear these words and they blame society. They need to quiet themselves and look in the mirror and walk through it. That is the only true salvation. In mirrors, we can learn how to walk on water.

32.You will never have a firm foundation for dreams if you cling to the ones that no longer work or serve you. Dare to be a fool. Dare to take a leap of faith.

33. Listen to your heart. You are loved and you are guided. You are a beautiful light that does not lie, cheat, or steal. You deserve the world for there is a universe within you, behind the shroud.


Arjuna, the forces of nature are harmony, restless activity, and inactivity (sattvarajas, and tamas). They arise from the creative energy (prakriti) which binds the indestructible one fast to the physical body.

Bhagavad Gita

…You mock my blindness, do you? But I say that you, with both your eyes, are blind

Sophocles, 400-401

1. As above, so below. As inside, so outside.

2. The stars reflect the inner world. They were created to remind us of who we are and where we are from. Just as we possess a material and etheric body, so do the stars.

3. Elohim (”the mighty ones”) created mankind in the image of themselves.

4. All the representations of love in culture and society are images and reflections. They are all idolatry. What we call the real world is really a beautiful imitation. But we become absorbed in it.

5. Absorption in the world leads to pain and misery.

6. Yoga Sutras 2.3 There are five kinds of illusions (kleshas): 1) forgetting, or ignorance about the true nature of things (avidya), 2) I-ness, individuality, or egoism (asmita), 3) attachment or addiction to mental impressions or objects (raga), 4) aversion to thought patterns or objects (dvesha), and 5) love of these as being life itself, as well as fear of their loss as being death.
(avidya asmita raga dvesha abhinivesha pancha klesha)

7. There is no truth in this material realm. The two eyes will not lead you to love.

8. Meditation is not designed for relaxation. The goal of meditation is not to rid yourself of your ego or stress.

9. In order to meditate, you must learn to master ego and stress, thoughts and emotions. Then you can meditate.

10. Most of us live life in a continual state of preparation. We are always planning to better ourselves, and we usually go in the wrong direction, thinking it is the correct path. Ten years later, out of weariness, we remember our younger aspirations, and we quickly distract ourselves away from our own illusions with convincing excuses and explanations.

11. True passionate love is there for your to express, but we bury it in weakness and longing. That is only natural however when you starve something to death.

12. Our mind is not evil. Our ego is not evil. There are no people or things that do not serve you. Everything is a lesson. You can choose to take it or deny it. It is all there for you. Every minute of every day, your life is presented to your vision for consideration of the lesson.

13. When people first begin to meditate, they quickly give up because nothing is happening and the mind takes over wandering every which way. It is difficult for the novice to control the mind, and it causes much suffering because our minds are always a bad neighborhoods when left to their own devices. But if one wants to progress in life, one needs to start cleaning up somewhere. Don’t be afraid of the dirt, just notice it and remove it. If it comes back, remove it again. Eventually, it will get the message.

14. The practice of removing thoughts is like cleaning a dirty window so you can see through it. Yes, in the beginning the thoughts will keep coming back or new thoughts will take their place. Eventually, however, you will be showing who is boss.

15. Once you have started clearing the thoughts, you will still have some grime that remains. It will distort your vision, but you will still make out the shapes and the faces of a universe that is nothing other than magical.

16. You do not find your power in the external. Your power is always within. All of us experience it, filtered through the material realm. And yes, we abuse it, or cast it aside, or try to possess it out of greed and lust. But as we know, all things in this material world come and go, despite the fact that we worship it as a living god. The frequency of these created things cannot withstand the test of time. However, they are often sourced in those higher eternal frequencies, and it is possible to locate yourself there outside the material dimension.

17. Jesus was a healer and could walk on water because he was not of this material world, not because he was a fiction.

18. The world we perceive through the fives senses is a tiny grain of sand compared to the entire universe you have access to.

19. Once you peer through the window of your intuitive eye, you will realize that the window is a door.

20. John Lennon dreamed of us living as one. This is because he knew that we are already one.

21. Separation is an illusion that causes us great pain and misery. We can feel at war with the world, each other, and ourselves. This is due to the nature of the world in regards to its apparent consistency and adherence to Newtonian Laws of physics. Everything remains the same and yet it changes. We like things to remain the same.

22. The quantum field is the only true constancy. But it is a constant field of possibilities that be conjured up through creative powers.

23. All creative endeavor accesses the quantum field of possibility. This is our natural and subconscious connection to “diety”. Yet most art, especially the unoriginal type of art, is heavily reliant upon material mind and memory – it uses the familiarity of the physical world as a means of expression. In other words, it offers no new perspective. Phenomenon such as Mozart, the Beatles, Nietzsche, are examples of creative individuals who truly reinvented the flow of their respective material realms.

24. Invention is our connection to source. Memory is our connection to humanity.

25. What is worth seeing forever is not seen through the eyes. The blind have a distinct advantage over the rest of the population. Most people however wrongly think of them as disabled.

26. The material powers of this world will always work against the one who wants to tap into true inventiveness and creativity. The material world is designed to attract heroes who wish to overcome it. In Christianity, this is called the devil. Jesus spent a lot of time with the devil.

27. Most people stay away from things they consider demonic, like yoga or tarot reading. This avoidance is actually a work of the very “devil” they say they fear. It is a test that will not pass if t hey don’t overcome their own devil.

28. You are never alone. There are spirit guides with you. If you enter a deep state of meditation, you will see them. Some appear in the form of humans or animals or simply light beings. Once you witness them, you will never suffer again by anything any human being can do to you.

29. Many wonder: well, if spirit guides are with me, why don’t they help me? First of all, there is free will. You must ask and you must ask in earnest from a place of unconditional love. Note also that the “me” you are talking about it is the material “me”, the “mini me”, the one that is projected into the material world. That “me” you want help for might require some hard medicine. You have to be willing to take the medicine.

20. A lifetime in the world is a phenomenal blip that emerges from the quantum field. Most of us don’t last very long.

21. Who you are is nothing that you can imagine, and even if you could imagine it, it would be wrong and unconvincing.

22. The only way to experience the self is through meditation. There is no other way. The third eye must be opened.

23. Most people’s third is (pineal gland) has been calcified due to fluoride and other environmental/health factors. It is possible to decalcify it through died and Reiki.

24. Your body must be prepared to handle the ascension of self. If you wish to take that path, practice grounding yourself first. Otherwise, you will fly too far afield where There Be Dragons. Every spiritual endeavor must be balanced with a foot or two upon the earth.

25. Children cling to their blanket. You cling to everything that persists around you.

26. We are children and will remain children until we choose not to be.

27. There is a divine will that works through you, and if you do not follow it, you will not be fulfilled when you die. It is for the reason, you will be reincarnated again until you learn to follow it.

28. There are people who deny the divine exists. You can see their souls swimming against the current as they complain about the difficulty of life and how if a God or spiritual entity were present, they wouldn’t suffer so much.

29. Some people read every challenge as if it were an eternal stop sign guarded by an angel of the fiery sword.

30. We are all guided at different times and at different levels and speeds. The only requirement is to be aware of your journey. Yet so many insist on writing books and twitter posts about how everyone else should be approaching life as they do.

31. You are your only teacher. The other teachers outside of you should only be guides to lead you back to yourself.

32. My greatest love and lover never touched me. He pointed me in the direction of my soul and I have traveled there and beyond. There is no greater gift in the universe, this love, this life, this magical beauty that is the truth of our existence.

He is the sun to my moon; the awareness to my subconscious; the universe to my tiny breath.

Samadhi, Bliss, and You

Yoga Sutra 3.3: tad eva artha matra nirbhasam svarupa shunyam iva samadhih

When the field of observation and the observing intelligence merge as if their own form is abolished and the total intelligence shines as the sole substance or reality, there is pure choiceless awareness without the divided identity of the observer and the observed – that is illumination.

Translation and interpretation by Swami Venkatesananda
  1. The Cup Overfloweth. We have an immense capacity for helping others, for we are as a cup that overflows or as a volcano that erupts from the earth. We give to each other with very little effort and extraordinary energy. Thinking, planning, and strategizing are accessories that are useful, but can quickly become impediments to the good effects you wish to distribute.
  2. Utilitarianism. Our utilitarian mindset is simple and leads to much unhappiness. We watch the beauty of the fish as they swim effortlessly in the pond, and we wonder how such a vision could be sold to the highest bidder.
  3. Turgid Waters. It is not possible to give powerfully to anyone or anything when your soul is burdened and muddied in the waste that is guilt, shame, and blame. In those cases, water is still there, but it is dark and turgid water in which only dark and turgid souls love to swim.
  4. Fans. Those who approve of and engage in self-shaming, guilt, and torture of various kinds easily become the friends and fans of those who sing their songs.
  5. Spark. There is a tiny light of power that shines in the dark for those who wish to free themselves from the shackles of self-doubt and fear. An art that flames that tiny apparently insignificant fire is born of the divine will. Carpe Diem. Seize the day.
  6. Ego Thought Love. Loving oneself and others is false love when it refers to loving the ego and the thoughts we have about ourselves and the others.
  7. Unity. There is not a single thought that can express the nature of who you are. That is why you must look within. You are an endless universe of stars.
  8. Eye. Notice that the phrase “looking within” does not mean for us to use the eyes that only look without.
  9. Salvation in Approval. Most people want to be good and do good deeds in order to redeem themselves. Jesus taught that salvation only comes from the divine, but the people only hear a man’s words when they listen to Jesus talking about God. So they look for men and women to approve of them.
  10. Sparks of Eternal Fire. Every person who uses social media as a gauge for their own value receives a little spark of the fire of life with every “like” they receive. But as soon as that spark appears it begins to die. The addiction is to crumbs, not to sustenance or power. It is the lifestyle of those who do not know how to create with the eternal fire. But you can learn.
  11. Eternity. The most difficult part of meditation is learning how to allow yourself to meditate. Most meditation exercises offered to the public are not really meditation, but are a preparation for meditation. We cannot meditate truly until we become the observer of our own thoughts and world. In that sense, meditation is always an attempt, and as we practice the attempt, we become more observant of the endless possibly that we are.
  12. Dragon Courage. We are not our bodies. We are not this meat bag. We are not this flesh and bones. We all have awareness or thoughts around these statements. But we usually stop there and continue on clinging to our lives. It is the rare person who continues to see what he or she actually is. Such person is possessed of great courage beyond measure. There be dragons.
  13. Animal Spirits. Each person has one or more spirit animals. Most people don’t see them. They exist in another dimension. How do you see them? Learn to clear your thoughts. Do energy work to clear your third eye. Eat clean foods. Practice meditation or yoga or music, anything that connects you to the divine.
  14. You are Divine Art. You are already an expression of the divine. Your actions and your words and your creations tell of who you are. You don’t notice this at all. You think you are surviving.
  15. Unity Consciousness. The third eye gives each of us access to the consciousness of unity or Christ Consciousness. It is where you experience the all in the one and the one of the all. Your higher consciousness leads to a universe that becomes one with all others. There is no division there; no separation. There is only observation, bliss and love. Samadhi.
  16. The World. This world that you see with your bodily senses is a very small fragment of who you are. But the world itself is interested in its own preservation through the beings that it inhabits. It will even destroy the other aspects of life in order to maintain its emperor-like dominion. We like to blame politicians or the corporations, but we need to first look at ourselves. Freedom from filth dissolves filth, just as a bird who flies high above the ant no longer sees the ant.
  17. Pity for the Hero. There is truly nothing in this world that is too big a problem for us to solve. We like to make mountains out of molehills because we yearn to be heroes or damsels in distress. But this is all coming from fear and worldly desires. We wish to become heroic or victim in order to redeem ourselves from our own self-loathing. It never works. Most drink themselves to death, play too many games, or do too many drugs, etc.
  18. Withdrawal of the senses (pratyahara) is the first step towards liberation, happiness, and bliss. It is the first step towards extracting yourself from the bondage that your thoughts have you subject to. You are your own willing slave. The keys of the cell you are in are the keys to the kingdom and they are in one of your many pockets.
  19. Agreement/Disagreement. Everything I write is something I experience directly. You can agree or not agree with what I am saying, but know that you are still in a state of polarized thought: you have not experienced anything.
  20. From Bliss to Word. Thinking is a wonderful computer-like mechanism. It makes us feel like we are experiencing something, especially if the idea feels right and sound. And when people agree with us – oh boy – we are the founders of an exquisite diamond! But the truth is that thoughts are thoughts about some buried experience that has usually been lost somewhere in some soul who is blissed out and happy in his soul, unconcerned but completely aware that his experience has been reduced to a few printed words.
  21. Awareness is a choice you can make. Take some time out for yourself. You do not need to work so hard. Relax and really look at your thoughts. Listen to how they roar and argue with each other. Listen to how you punish yourself. Listen to how you abuse yourself. Hear how never stop to listen to the air and the birds around you. Practice this every day, even for a few minutes. Be with yourself. Enjoy your own interaction with yourself. That is how you begin the process of meditation. Meet yourself. Buy yourself tea. Chat.
  22. “Love is the Law. Love under Will.” – Aleister Crowley, The Book of the Law.
  23. The Matrix is real and you are Neo; but you are not the one. So be it. So begin.

Heart over Mind, Mind over Matter

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh. findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Matthew 7:7-8

Emotional Ocean. The emotions arise from thoughts. The thoughts are the parents of all the emotions. But the emotions, as they grow in force, proceed to overrun and drown those very thoughts. The emotional body conceals the truth about its origins and plays a powerful role in perpetuating the karma associated with this concealment. We like to elevate our emotions because of their force and color, but in relation to truth they are as an ocean whose natural tendency is to bury the civilization that was its very origin. Emotions, like water, become darker as one dives deeper below the surface. The darker we plummet, the more forgetful we become; and to react emotionally is to be, first of all, forgetful. But even though we have forgotten, and even thought we do not seek to uncover what was once concealed (because we forget it even existed), new thoughts articulate these emotions, and these new thoughts allow us to experience a sort of understanding, not of truth, but of survival. Our understanding qua survival then becomes the root of our entire existence on earth, the animal instinct, the lie that must be saved at all costs. This false understanding is what teaches us how to swim in the deep waters of our emotional generational flood. When God destroyed humanity due to their forgetfulness, he drowned them in his tears. Was it out of love?

Questions for Conversation. We might learn more about each other and ourselves if we learn to speak in questions rather than in answers.

What is surviving? We have elevated the mind to near god-status. It doesn’t matter whether or not you consider yourself intellectual or not, if you live in the twenty-first century, you live in your mind, the manifestations of mind, the viciousness, the coldness, the harsh winter of calculation. Even the most emotional and sensitive of us filter those emotions and sensations through the mind. That is how we observe: We dissect, analyze, label, correlate. We do everything we can to understand. In other words, we do everything we can in order to survive. But what exactly is trying to survive?

Thesis/Antithesis. Emotionalism seems more real to those who suspect that mind does not always have their best interests at heart. They would be correct, but emotionalism is also a clever trick, mostly because emotionalism is devised by mind as a reaction against itself, in order to control all such reactions and avoid being seen.

Open the Heart. The only way to get the better of the mind is to use it to break the heart. For there is nothing the mind wants to prevent more than the release of the power of the heart; for within the heart is the truth, the truth about mind and emotions, the truth about your soul, the truth about who you are and what you are here for.

The Art of Cutlery. Knives are used in many capacities: art, medicine, cooking, crafts. In the tarot, the mind is represented by the suit of swords which in turn represents the alchemical element, air. The suit of swords is the most decisive of all the forms of the suits and is usually considered as the most terrible of the suits. Knives are meant to cut away (Latin, decidere) what is no longer needed as dictated by the purpose of the wielder of the knife. In alchemical terms, the knives prune the extremes of the fiery and watery suits, so as to create balance, harmony, health, and beauty. We must ask ourselves, are we good with knives? Are we careful with what our mind is doing? Are we using our mind or is our mind using us? For while mind is a necessary tool for balance in life, it can be quite dangerous when used by those who do not understand it’s power of manifestation, that it is a tool for creation by means of destruction.

Dividing Mind, Broken Heart. The mind by nature always divides. It divides itself from the heart. It divides its ego from others. It believes love is a choice and an alliance, a for and an against. The mind, if left to its own devices, makes war upon all of creation for the sake of its own preservation inside the ego. Only when the heart is able to witness this, when the heart breaks at the sight of it, will the soul be free of the suffering, pain, and misery caused by a relentless and unbridled mind, drunk on its own power.

One Hit Wonders. We are emotionally happy and exuberant when we believe to have made a good choice in life or when something good “happens” to us. But emotionalism, being the ocean that it is, always responds to high tides with the low. It may take time, but all emotionally motivated situations will show up to be erroneous or irrelevant decisions in relation to our entire life. Yet, some people will be so determined to hang on to the memories and expectations of those good feelings that they will spend the rest of their lives learning how to fool themselves into believing that they can’t smell the dead carcasses that they abandoned upon the shore.

Puppet on a String. The human world and civilization is currently designed to have you live from your emotional body. When you are living from your emotional body, you are not in control of your own Will. In that state of things life appears to be up and down, out of your control: you feel as if you are a victim or a spectator; a blessed being graced with luck or a being cursed beyond all redemption. Either way, someone else is actually determining your life for you, and they are doing so without your permission by means of a higher, more powerful and clever mind.

Ask and Ye Shall Receive. Most of us do not cultivate the power of our own Will for the same reason that we don’t want to look at the mess in the closet or beneath the bed. We don’t want to face the chaos we have permitted ourselves and others – by means of ourselves – to make. We just don’t want to own our life because it means having to do a lot of work to fix it and it also means facing the pain of our own ignorance and cruelty, as well as the ignorance and cruelty that we have allowed from others. But the truth is that there is freedom and beauty in your messes. There is love and forgiveness for your ignorance and your cruelty. But you cannot have that beauty, freedom, love and forgiveness if you do not get down upon your knees and ask for it. Look in the mirror, deep within the mirror; for there are stars and gods and devils in mirrors. Ask for light and ye shall receive the power to create light. For only with the light will you be able to see through the darkness of the ocean. And in that darkness you will illuminate the magic, the magnificent tragedy that is humanity, the missteps, the misunderstandings, the profound struggles, the redemption, the grace.For with that magic, you will gain the holy grail, the wonder, the divine love and joy of opening your heart to all of the world, at all times, and to all places, everywhere.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world”

John: 16:33


“The degree and kind of a man’s sexuality reach up into the ultimate pinnacle of his spirit.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

Love Growth and Destruction. Love brings us an opportunity to grow so as to become who we truly are. This also means that love brings us an opportunity to remove what isn’t who we truly are at all. When the chick hatches, it leaves behind the egg shell. When the butterfly leaves the cocoon, it doesn’t take it with them. It is finally free. This is why, for many, love is something with which they cannot afford to engage. They are still waiting for love to enter to where they are, to enter back into the cocoon, to return to the egg. The unnatural nature of that expectation doesn’t occur to them and so they suffer.

Bramachary (Celibacy) as a Precondition for Art. Augustus, the first Roman Emperor, had to institute the Lex Julia (laws of marriage) because no one wanted any part of it. He believed that marriage and the family were the bedrock of society for, at the time, Rome was dealing with rampant rape, violent sexual promiscuity, pedophilia, and various other types of unsavory behavior I don’t need to get into here. Suffice it to say, societal collapse was on the horizon and after Augustus passed, the madness continued, leading Rome into further and deeper decline. Meanwhile, romantic love, an idea that had its Western seeds in early Greek poetry, but began its long illustrious career in the late medieval-early Renaissance period, could only be possible under the misery/repression/boredom of marriage or loneliness due to lack of marriage, death, etc. The Eros of the Greek classical era, the wild orgiastic abandon of that god when mixed with the wine of a Dionysus, had all but vanished – thanks to the power of the Augustus, which was taken up by the Holy Roman Empire and the subsequent cultivation of chivalry and noble morality – from the general public perception. Sexual perversity was something that had to be removed or kept hidden. This “noble lie” as Plato had called it, lead to the burning of books, the concealment of ancient texts in the Vatican, the elimination of the mystery cults from the public consciousness. What this repression gave birth to however was a higher and more elevated expression of the now purified sexual urges. In the Yoga Sutras, this is called Bramacharya (celibacy), which is one of the Yamas (life practices) required for the true practice of yoga. It is a refinement and a purification of the sexual drive. This is essential in order to allow for a deeper more divine expression of sexuality. Historically, this unleashed and orgasmic explosion in science, philosophical thought, poetry, art, and music in the Renaissance. We in the modern age believe that absolute sexual freedom is more natural than repression, but the truth is the opposite. We become slaves to our physical proclivities first, and if we do not prevent that slavery first and foremost, we will never be able to attain the heights of wisdom and beauty that was say we wish to attain.

Technosexuality. Modern culture’s sexuality is what I call technosexuality. It’s perversity is for the most part publicly expressed and admitted inside the popularity of digitalized porn and sex robots, violently sexual movies and Netflix series, obsession with digitized bodies of women and men, etc. This kind of digital perversion also drives addiction to social media/Internet as a way to “find love” and “friends” and “acceptance”. “Look at me” is no longer look at “me”. Instead it is “look at my image”. But is there any difference for some? This superficial preoccupation of such a large part of the population is like giving millions of toddlers an iPad and permanently adhering it to their hands- they are happy and quiet and leave the rest of us alone. The ones who are not happy and make a lot of noise – those are the ones who will have to do a lot of hard and painful work in order to save themselves from this matrix.

So Called Self-Love. When most people refer to self-love, they are referring to a way of being that avoids what displeases them and chases what pleases them. A life of avoidance and chasing is not what constitutes self-love. Running from and chasing things or people is self-sabotage, self-defense, other-offense, and general misery for all. A dog, too frightened and too scared to give or receive affection, too wounded to open its heart, is not practicing self-love.

Cheap Imitations. True love is divine love. All other kinds of love are cheap imitation copies that create co-dependency, limitation, bondage, lies, fears, pain, and so-called self-love which is actually just a love of one’s own ball and chain.

Love is. Love is not a person, nor is it an emotion or an action. Love is your relationship to the world, in all its parts and in its whole. If you hate one part, you hate the whole. If you lie about half, it is entirely a lie. If you feel you lack love, you will find little abundance in the stars.

You are a Universe. Don’t imagine that you are smaller than that, unless you are infinitely smaller.

Tragi-comedy. We feel good about our suffering in love as long as there is comedy to help us make light of it. Most people don’t want to admit or remember that the comic mask is just an upside down tragedy. Behind the jokes and the self-deprecating laughter is pain equal to or beyond measure of all the smiles of the world. Comedy is always a reaction to tragedy. One does not exist without the other. One cannot be present without the other. There is a ferocious bite in the wide toothy grin.

Detachment: Shake and Break. Comedy can be one of a number of possible first steps towards awareness around a situation or a state of being. First and foremost it requires an artistic talent or a keen eye to make light of a circumstance that would otherwise be too difficult to bear. And although the comic and lighter perspective does not offer the truth of a situation or being, it does unveil the unreality of its previous seriousness in the form of tragedy. When comedy makes light of tragedy, the tragedy appears to dissolve as if it were never there at all. The court jester lightens the king’s load. What this effects is quite powerful, for the individual gets the impression that the dark tragic perspective is not actually a reality at all and perhaps there is another more suitable one. A wise man or woman would see this and perhaps launch themselves into a search for the truth. Most, however, need a significant amount of incubation time before they seek such truth. Instead, they might be lead to believe that the comic perspective is the true perspective. But this kind of elevation gives seriousness to the comedy which is a bit like trying to make candy with salt instead of sugar. Such a recipe easily leads to a particularly unsavory and distasteful mode of behavior and manner of speaking. We know these types who emerge: class clowns, jokers, irresponsibility, irreverence, joblessness, despair, political activism, and – full circle -, dramatic expression and outburst, anger, venom. There is of course the accompanying possibility of a mind refuting the comic perspective entirely as being unsavory, perhaps on moral or religious grounds, which leads to a reversion back to the ponderous seriousness of one’s old perspective and being. We know these types: stodgy, inflexible, prideful, stubborn, arrogant, boring, silently anxious, bowel disturbances, and a private love of toilet humor. Either way, this back and forth between laughter (or avoidance of laughter) and tears will continue ad infinitum until the soul manages to extricate itself from both of these equally false realities. The individual, shaken back and forth, will be as an hourglass, with the sand being forced from one side to the other, and quite violently, until the glass suddenly breaks completely due to a combination of their surrendered ego and divine intervention. This surrender and intervention will finally release both the sand and the force of a soul who was only eager to free of the absurdity once and for all. This is the true nature and presentation of detachment which is a process of growth, awareness, and love which finally leads to bliss. The process is not peaceful in any way shape or form. It creates bi-polarized energies, emotional swings, friction, despair, surrender (to the divine), followed by complete collapse of what has kept the soul imprisoned for so many years and/or lifetimes. Namaste.

Potty humor arises out of shame. It is a truly low vibrational, reactive type of entertainment that most people enjoy. Watch the face of a dog as he tries to be discreet while doing his business with his owner watching. If a dog were a comedian, he would mainly tell food, poop, and fart jokes.

Afraid of What We Want. We are strange beings who are afraid to have what we want and so choose to simply purchase easier, cheaper, and less risky imitations of it. It is challenging to grow flowers. Much easier to buy them or – better yet – buy fake ones. Even easier: forget about them completely. We are no different in matters of love. We want it to be given to us, like we give it to our dogs. We don’t want to do the work, but we love to expend energy in complaining and creating art concerning how miserable love is. Love Stinks yeah yeah.

Love of Many Names and Blames. Love is the god of many names, but it is in English identified with a single word. The reasons for this are complex, but I will try to make it simple. We want to believe love is as effortless as a few unchallenged expectations and a contract either written or implied. Love, we all imagine, is being or doing in a specific way. Love, we think, is anthropocentric and adheres or should adhere to our social norms, rules, and regulations. Love, we assert, must conform to our conscious desires. And so, to reflect our desire for simplification, we give a single label to love, and we apply all of its constrictions to all possible loves. But when a possible love falls apart in relation to our expectations and attempts, we then begin the pain and the misery. We will most of the time launch our entire being into blaming ourselves or our partners for this injustice done to us; perhaps we will even blame society and love itself. But upon whomever we cast blame, we rarely stop to think that perhaps our definition of love is what is to blame, not the people involved, and certainly not love.

Love is calling. Love calls to you every day. How deep have you buried your heart so that you no longer have to hear it’s cry?

Self-empowerment/Self-Love. There are many books written by self-proclaimed love authorities. All of them are calls to “love yourself”. What they say sounds more or less correct, however what they are doing is simply fanning the flames of a fire that is already burning the house down. An individual who is most likely running from love and creating a life fueled by fear and limitation, is being told to love themselves at all costs. Well, burn on.

The First Sacrifice of Love. The first sacrifice love demands of you is for you to recognize that your definition of love has permeated your life in every aspect and in every dimension. It has become a fractal of sorts and it has replicated into your relationships with yourself, with others, with art, and with entire universe. Yes, your definition of love has cosmological significance. It is a definition that was formed either in a previous life, or in the current one when you were very young. Most of us are in fact walking around with very childlike views on what love should look like, childlike views that were reflected back to us from our parents, the television, movies, teachers, friends.

Love of Art. Your consciousness in regards to what love is perpetuates and replicates itself inside the mass consciousness. Those who are powerful “thought leaders”, such as artists and writers and philosophers, are the ones who move this mass consciousness more powerfully than the rest of the consumers or carriers. It is for that reason that care must be taken on the part of artists to become aware of the nature of this power they are wielding. The nature of it is related to the power of love itself. In other words, the expression of artists and theaters is what directs the form of love as it manifests in the world. As such, it directs the form and perception of the universe, as something we are either related to or something that we are cut off from.

Responsibility. Love grants you responsibility. Your relationship to it will determine the nature of your world and the world of those you can’t even imagine. You have no choice in this. You send out anger about love, you will create more anger. You send out pain? You will create more pain. If you choose anger and pain, maybe you should stay inside, away from the children. The children have had enough pain. You remember, don’t you?

Sour Grapes. People still relate to the world as if it were a friendship gone sour. The greater the ignorance of nature, the greater the fear; and as fear arises, so do all the barriers against love.

Failing at Love Again. Many of us removed God from our belief system because he failed to give us the love we wanted. Who did we replace him with? Could it be the ego who has taken the crown? Whoever he or she is, she is failing us as well. And miserably I might add.

Ego, Dharma, Healing

Nothing is higher than dharma. The weak overcomes the stronger by dharma, as over a king. Truly that dharma is the Truth (Satya); Therefore, when a man speaks the Truth, they say, “He speaks the Dharma”; and if he speaks Dharma, they say, “He speaks the Truth!” For both are one.
Brihadaranyaka Upanishad, 1.4.xiv

Agreement. Our dependency on other people is not due to our own weakness, but is due to the superficial preoccupations of our mind. When not at “work”, our mind spends most of its time with trivialities, falsities, and circular repetitious inner dialogues. The truth is that we are rarely dealing with the real world, if such a thing exists; and even if it does exist, we have very little inclination to associate with it, let alone the patience to inquire about it. Everyone else does this as well, and their agreement with us appears to constitute “reality”. We choose, for better or for worse, to engage with people who support the illusion and confusion we conjure on a regular basis. Shared delusion, mass consciousness, birds of a feather; call it what you like. As Friedrich Nietzsche said, “In individuals, madness is rare. In groups, it is the rule.”

Bondage and attachment. We are more attached to our thoughts about love than actually loving. It is a situation that is truly the “devil’s handiwork”.

Success. We generally never question what constitutes society’s idea of success. If we did, the idea would have already transformed, and so would we. And if success doesn’t fulfill us, we pretend that it does until the lie becomes so great that the only friend we have is what the Greeks called pharmaka: spells, incantations, and herbs. We recognize these as pharmaceuticals. Some are satisfied with simply “partying”.

Poison. Poison is not in the air or the sea, the earth or the fire. The poison is always in what we believe, and what we believe we must be.

Reality. People speak confidently to each other and themselves about being “realistic”. But “realism” only makes sense within the context of a hive mind and the limits it sets for itself. These limits are what divide good from bad, right from wrong, possible and impossible, all of which apply to everyone and no one in particular.

Thinking and Inner Knowing. We think that thinking leads to observation and that observation leads to truth. But this is a lie. There is no true and good observation with the mind. The mind is not an instrument for the observation of truth. The soundness of an argument does not mean it is a true argument. You can create a damn good story, but it has no bearing on its validity. A program for a computer can be logically sound and perfectly written. There is nothing “true” about it. It is a created system designed to stand by itself in a certain context. Mind as a whole is an instrument for collection, categorization, organization, structuring, story telling, argumentation, etc. The mind’s utility comes in after the observation/inspiration has already taken place. With what organ do we observe reality? Some cultures call it the “third eye” or the “heart chakra”, or the “understanding”. It is the source of all original inspiration and creativity. Plato called it “remembering”, because he saw inner knowledge as something that is already there within us latent and hidden. We are born with what we are meant to create; all we have to do is simply recollect and work on manifesting it. Yet most of us do not believe in any of this because not only have we been uneducated in the awareness of ourselves, but even when we do become aware, we decide that such an inner search takes time and solitude. And time and solitude will not make interesting YouTube videos or Facebook posts. Time and solitude will not get you quick success.

Quickly. Fine wines are not produced in a day.

From Spirit to Cog. Even though we are not aware of the full powers of our third eye, we still receive information from within and through it. The third eye is literally a portal to other worlds, and aspects or timelines of this world. However, this information is distorted and muddied by the ego-material world we live in. We immediately transmute spiritual information into childish dream analysis, ideas for action, ideas for winning. The American culture is still very pragmatic with regards to its own success. The individuals within it are simply expressions and pawns of that pragmatism. Spiritual insight is always shortly followed by “How can I sell this?”. And if we can’t sell it for the sake of wealth, fame, or image, we discard it immediately.

Heaven for Hell.
American culture’s relationship to yoga and meditation can be defined in the following way: We stretch our muscles towards the heavens so that we might relax happy inside our hell.

Group Meditation.
The only access to true reality is through our own experience of spirit. Meditation helps. Group meditation, however, is like to going to a sociologist for psychotherapy.

Disease and Profits. There is no money to be gained if people don’t need someone else to do something for them. There is always an financial incentive to keeping physical and spiritual disease alive and thriving.

Self-Doubt. Self doubt is the ego’s most clever survival strategy. Self-doubt is one of the most difficult psychological barriers to happiness and, at the same time, it is the best way to protect our current status-quo, whatever that may be. Self-doubt is most difficult, not because it is inherently complicated to remove as if it were some sophisticated alien implant, but because the strength of self-doubt is proportional to the power of the ego, which in most of us is unbounded and untamed. Self-doubt never doubts the doubter, because that would remove the entire disease and send the person into a reflective hall of mirrors. It’s just too much twisty mental yoga for most people to even look at it. No, self-doubt keeps us from being or doing or saying something outside of our normal routine. It is simply a ego-defense mechanism and it is designed to make you fail at your heart’s desire. Every. Single. Time. Self-doubt usually arises due to an overprotective parent. They would rather you stay in the house all day, than risk skinning a knee.

Imbalance always stems from an unbridled ego. Excessive muscle mass, excessive exercising, excessive partying, drinking. The power of the ego is always in inverse proportion to the power of the soul. Can’t control yourself when faced with a bag of chocolate? This is not about lack of will power; it is about the lack of relationship to your own soul. Look at it this way. Would you continually feed your dog or your child a bag of chocolate in every day? Not unless you want to kill the former, and cause serious health problems in the later. Why would you do it to yourself? It is not because you lack will power. It is because you are not connecting to love and care towards yourself.

Love is Health. With love, intelligence, care, grace, and kindness comes naturally. How do you access love? You begin by being true to yourself, to your powers, to your inner knowing. Spend time alone. Let everything else that falls away from that, fall away. You don’t need it.

Google as Oracle. We moderns believe that we know more of reality than the ancients. It is true that we may know more about the natural phenomena as presented through the five senses. We have spent a lot of time with data and pattern observation in observable phenomena. We worship our material world in a way that the Egyptians would find shocking. We even have computers that we love more than life itself, to do our heavy mathematical calculations, logical sentences, and Google oracle searches. But this deep faith in physical scientific data has spread to all areas of human life and the result is that we have never been more ignorant about the nature of ourselves or the universe. This is why the ancients look ignorant to us, not because they were ignorant, but because they were usually talking about something that we have long forgotten, namely, ourselves.

Misunderstandings. Our standard modern egoic understanding of religion and gods completely prevents us from understanding anything true about religion and gods.

Socrates: I know nothing.
Delphic Oracle: Know yourself!
Socrates: I know that I know nothing.

Resist, Surrender, Resent. To resist against social norms is to persist those social norms. This is why most young people eventually give up their resistance and surrender to what they once claimed to despise. At that later point, they see themselves as “growing up”. But the truth is that they have just “grown in”. They are as wild horses who finally succumb to the comforts offered by their masters. Later, as they age, these people are most likely to become the ones who are the least tolerant of those who don’t in turn succumb to what they themselves once submitted to.

Monkey Mind. Most people give up on meditation because they have a “monkey mind”, a mind that is completely unable to stop swinging from thought to thought, from dream to dream, from desire to desire. Restlessness, anxiety, inconsistency: all of them feel impossible to avoid. But this is precisely why they shouldn’t give up on meditation. Yet for some reason, the monkey thinks that if it is hungry, it shouldn’t bother eating.

Separation. The energy of people speaks louder than their words and their actions. You can experience the thoughts of another individual even before they can articulate those thoughts to themselves. This is no magic. This is possible only because we are not really separated from each other. Psychic powers arise out of awareness of connection with others from within.

Karmic Disease. If you cause pain to another human being, you will feel that pain as well. It will become part of you. This is what karma is. It is not justice. It is the experience of shared energy. You cannot intentionally harm or hurt someone else without harming and hurting yourself. It may manifest differently within you and you might not identify it until later, but it is there. This is how generational karma is possible. The pain is transferred. You are always the one who has the opportunity to heal it. Otherwise, you will remain a carrier and you will spread that pain far and wide to as many children and animals as possible. Karma is a disease and each one of us can resolve it. First by recognizing it, healing the wounds, and healing others.

Generational Suffering. One person can contain the evil and pain of multiple generations. I have seen such a one or two and I have seen deep suffering and alcohol in their eyes.

Victims. The modern victim mentality perpetuates karmic disease. When everyone is the victim, no one takes action to resolve the karma. We don’t take responsibility because we are the root cause of the pain, we take responsibility because we can be the cause of the healing. It is our Dharma to do so. To neglect that duty is to actually become part of the root cause.

Healing. The source of all confusion and muddied thinking and feeling is a lack of access to Source or God (whatever you call it) via your third eye. You are one and your being is integrated inside the world in a profound and magical way. The confusion you suffer is not due to psychological illness, but due to sociological conditioning and false education. Peel off the layers of social conditioning and you will uncover your true voice. This takes time, love, and patience. Do not give up in this. Be relentless. Find others who support you. Find good books, not self-help agendas and yoga teacher trainings. Stop chasing “success” and “money”. It is candy but it will leave you unfulfilled. Then when you are done and have found who you are, or at least who you are not, begin to learn how you might heal all the others. You will know when it is time. Only you will know. Google knows nothing.

Sexuality: Truth or Fame?


Jesus replied, “Even if I testify about Myself, My testimony is valid, because I know where I came from and where I am going. But you do not know where I came from or where I am going. You judge according to flesh. I judge no one.


John 8:15

Poetry as Sexual Spells.There are certain poems whose words are not meant to be heard for their clever composition. They are instead symbols, like hieroglyphics, which, in their spellings, transmit an energy meant to be felt and recreated again and again upon each reading. Poetry, like music, is the art of spells and incantations and love-making. What does poetry and music wish to achieve? It wishes of course to find another to receive it, so that it might enter the other for self replication. This pursuit is as the nature of life and love itself. Union, replication, procreation, recreation, reincarnation: it doesn’t matter whether the poet/musician is still alive or long passed, the listener who resonates with the energy of the composer’s spells will receive that energy as a recognized force of consciousness. That energy which moves through the listener is palpable and powerful. And as a song is transmitted within the soul of the listener and welcomed there, it’s seeds are planted, to someday perhaps germinate into similar offspring.

Transmutation of Sexual Energy. The transference and recreation of energy over time and space is not to be confused with the temporal energetic emotional state and lusts of lovers. Emotional expression cannot alone carry itself beyond the moment of its expression. Lust is no match for unconditional divine love. Its end is quick, unstable, and unsubtle. Unconditional love, on the other hand, is a creative energy, an energy of consciousness that transforms a sudden outburst of tears into the tragedy of humanity, the longing of a young man or woman into the eternal quest for union with the beloved, the pain of death into the Iliad. There is a certain divine grace inherent in this divine love, for it saves us from being utterly consumed by what is by itself self-annihilating.

Canines.The general population experiences their sexuality as a physical experience like eating food or drinking. This is why the general population does not have an impact beyond temporal creation. From dust they arise and to dust they return. Still some of them are very attractive and well-groomed.

Pleasure.The modern world is an amazing place where dogs enjoy more comforts and privileges than most people in Africa. Most people, if you demanded of them the truth, would admit that a dog’s life is more enjoyable than their own.

Know the Beast. Most artists in the modern world seek to become popular amongst the general population. They will soon find out – when it is too late – that each moment spent trying to please the general population, is a moment that gets them even closer to homelessness – or worse – a desk job.

Temporal Recognition. Fame in the twenty-first century is temporary. As time goes on, it will get even more temporary. Many will blame this on technology or society at large. But the blame itself is misplaced and is itself a symptom of the true problem. The real problem is that most professional artists and wannabe artists have become attention and sexual whores.

Responsibility. Technology is an instrument not only for distraction but also for scapegoating. Not only does it allow us to abdicate our mathematical responsibilities, but also our responsibilities in regards to exercising the power of our own Will.

Only One. We don’t produce Shakespeares and Mozarts not because we are addicted to the Internet, but because Shakespeares and Mozarts have always been rare. But that is okay. These single individuals are blessed with a divine love and grace so powerful that they still empower and inspire us to this day. We just need one. Only one.

God is Alive. God is the source of all creativity. Nietzsche declared His death…and then resurrected Him. I have yet to meet someone who understands this. Instead, what we have are fools who refute God because they think God cares about arguments.

Justice. True philosophy has nothing to do with argument or self defense. Philosophy would actually have no function if the human world were not constantly in a state of imbalance and excess and – let’s face – utter stupidity. Philosophy has been and always will be justice, the enterprise whose goal it is to rebalance humanity or a section of humanity. A philosopher will poke holes in a previous philosopher’s arguments not because he is trying to prove the other wrong, but because rebalancing requires it. Students of philosophy will ignorantly imitate the actions and words of the philosopher, not understanding the power and energy and direction of those words. By the time students rummage through the old philosopher’s bones, his original words, concepts, ideas have already succumb to gravity. They have grown slow and ponderous, eventually collapsing into their own weight. The word “love” in the mouth of Socrates, for example is now so filled with every single aspect of affinity, sexual contact, emotional intimacy, etc that the word is virtually meaningless.

Romeo. The philosopher who is interesting in lovemaking, will make sure that he first refutes every definition of love he can find.

Canary in the Coal Mine. An artist cannot express from his heart and soul if his heart and soul is filled with lies and deceits. He can try of course, but he will find only limitation and difficulty. He would be the canary in the coal mine, but in a cave mine that is filled to the top with coal. That is why it is a good idea for every artist to constantly look to remove anything that keeps his heart from singing freely into open air.

Boredom. The general population will worship artists who excite their physical sexuality. Everything else is boring and pretentious like Rachmaninoff and Longfellow and Jesus.

Destiny. Artists must always answer this question: Do you desire fame or do you love truth? Who is your mistress? She will be your lover. She will be your destiny.

Trick Questions. Everything in life offers a trick question. Slow down. Listen. Contemplate. Then perhaps answer.